Bad Blood

These words will not come easy. I have struggled with my feelings for a couple of days now. I have come into some new information about a time in my life that nearly destroyed me and these new facts were supposed to make me feel worse, but they haven’t and that has been the greatest … Continue lendo

Anxiety Attacks

Starting life over has been a recurring theme in my life as of last year and it has had a very unsettling effect on my brain – it has made me revisit. Sure, every one gets a bit nostalgic at times, but I feel I have taken it to another level. I believe it comes … Continue lendo

Hibernation weekend

Hibernation weekend

So this is my hideaway weekend. After doing all the socialising required of me for today, including a dress fitting that makes me uncomfortable as hell every time I have to go there, I’m finally in full hibernation state accompanied by nothing except a bottle of wine and my equally anti-social cat. That’s all I … Continue lendo

Silver linings

Silver linings

I know I’m not doing too well when I stop writing. I’ve spent the last weeks avoiding it like the plague, so that is a world-class sign that I’m doing REALLY shitty lately. When my only positive thought is that, this time last year, I had nearly 10% of my upper body covered in 2nd … Continue lendo

On hold

On hold

I’ve been trying to write, but it seems borderline impossible to finish anything lately. I’ve started dozens of different essays and short stories, but as inspired as I might feel as I start them, it seems to fall flat halfway through it. It is so frustrating… How can I dare to call myself a writer … Continue lendo

The Morning After

The Morning After

“God” – was all she could think to herself as she fought to open her tired eyes – “How much did I drink last night?” Her lids felt heavy and couldn’t seem to work together. She half opened her right eyes as her left one kept blinking incessantly, more sensitive to the dim light of … Continue lendo

To make you feel my love

To make you feel my love

Have you ever been asked to prove your love? I have. You wanna know the truth? No matter how ready I thought I was for it… I was wrong. Having your feelings questioned is just about the most disrespectful thing you can go thorough….. really. At first, when I fell in love with an English … Continue lendo

Everything you want for me…

I know what im supposed to write, what my decreasing handful of faithful readers expect fo find from my new not exoctic aventure as I crawl into the leather that is london, in it’s fake fashion statements, false lashes and overdone spray tan. London is a lie at its core. The women as not as … Continue lendo

Three wishes

Three wishes

Have you ever played the genie game? The one where you ask each other what would your three wishes be if you found a gennie in a bottle? And you couldn’t wish for more wishes….That thought has crossed my mind today, and aside from the obvious answer of “money” I think I finally figured out … Continue lendo