DIA ZERO (download gratuito)

DIA ZERO (download gratuito)

A todos vocês que esperaram por este momento (minha mãe, meu pai e mais meia dúzia de gatos pingados), eis aqui o caminho para o download gratuito de DIA ZERO, meu primeiro livro (de muitos, se tudo der certo). Basta clicar nessa capa LINDA desenhada pelo meu querido amigo Paulo Engler! Tudo que eu peço … Continue lendo

33 years in a row

33 years in a row

So another year goes by and it’s the eve of my birthday again. Whop freaking doo. I hate my birthday anyway, haven’t had a good one in over 15 years. I don’t even try to celebrate anymore because I’m so sick and tired of disappointment. I’m not a friendly person, I’m not surrounded by people … Continue lendo

My pain and his

I’m tired. No, wait, let me rephrase it: I’m exhausted. No, still not enough: I feel like I’ve been run over by overweight white elephants made of led. That comes closer… Spent most of my day in the hospital. Not because I’m sick, but because the love of my life is and, somehow, that feels … Continue lendo

Reality doesn’t disappoint

I’m angry today. It’s a random week night, the weather it off the charts hot and I feel a lot more angry than I should. I do. And I don’t think I need to apologise for it. I do have a sense of entitlement at this point. The more someone tries to argue me that … Continue lendo

Plus One

For a long time, I believed I knew everything there was to know about love. I was the person everyone I knew looked for relationship advice and I was proud of it, as if I had uncovered some special secret before anyone else. And then, it exploded in my face. Slowly, but suddenly, everything I … Continue lendo

It wasn’t me. It was Patricia.

It wasn’t me. It was Patricia.

I feel so tired. It’s not about physical exhaustion, no, it’s a mental kind of exhaustion. It’s this overwhelming feeling of over thinking and over analysing and trying to get in control of feelings far beyond my understanding. You see, I have this other personality stuck in me, she only really comes out when I … Continue lendo

Are you happy?

Are you happy?

“Are you happy?” Is what he asks me every other day. That is a really tough one to answer, now, isn’t it? I personally don’t consider happiness a permanent thing, but a state of mind that alters when it alteration finds. And alteration has been so constant to my life these last few weeks it … Continue lendo

Lucky Me

Lucky Me

For the last 10 months, I have barely been asked how I was doing. Every one who saw me had one single question: when are you going back to London? Almost felt like living on the cover of a cheap tabloid… who cares how I’m actually doing, if the gossip of my moving is so … Continue lendo

Wired wrong

Wired wrong

Funny thing self acknowledgement. When you finally understand a side of yourself that has always been there, defining your choices and decisions and everything that has led you to becoming the person you are when you family acknowledge it. For me, most recently, it has been a quest of discovery of empathy and priority. It … Continue lendo

Writers Syndrome

Writers Syndrome

I have this very clear idea of what I want to write about, but I know I won’t. I know that, within the first paragraph, I’ll end up diverging from my point and going in a brand new direction. Something more dramatic, a more interesting version of my original point. That’s just how my brain … Continue lendo

The foundation on Love

Trust. That is a very complicated subject and I should know that very well by now, given all I went through with my ex. It fucked me right up, made me a paranoid freak for years. It’s a daily struggle to handle my trust issues, but I’ve not only been pulling through, I’ve actually identified … Continue lendo